Shine for me by Juhdora

Chapter One

Disclamer : As much as I would like to say the other way around , but still I don't own Inuyasha and its characters .

Now ... to the story:

It had been a while since that fateful day, the day I met her. I, the great Taiyoukai of the Western land, feared. I guess that it is hard to believe that someone who was considered so cold-blooded, so arrogant, so stoic,.. or anything of those crap do fear . But yes, I did. Since I was in my 145th year, I was seen as a great-to-be-Taiyoukai. They saw me powerful, they saw me merciless, they saw me went wise and wild beyond my age ... But they never seen the fear inside me.

I fear to fail.

It seems that everything is so easy and simple to me: the lesson, the training, challenges and else. But every time when I defeated another defiance I would just feel something's unbalanced , something's not right .It was so easy yet I felt like I've just managed to stopped my downfall in time. I felt like an excellent student fears to face his bad marks. I thought that it was childish to fear something so childish but I was childish my self.

Then, there was a time when I succeeded to push my fear aside and continue to wear my mask up. I kept playing along my role as a magnificent leader . I tried to be more cruel , more server and more totalitarian. I built up a wall around my heart, preventing any foolish soul who would try and touch it. When I reached my 250th year, I began to journey out and around my land , slaughtering any youkai who dared go against me or ones who I felt like a peril and needed to be got rid of. As a result to my hard works , I received respect from elders in the council and phobia from youkai all over the land.

That was the time when I felt safe . No body will ever know of my fear, no youkai will ever dare to challenge me .

I would be safe .

I would be safe .

I would be ...

Or so I thought .

My stoic mask was broken.

The wall around my heart was destroyed.

I felt like I was stripped naked in front of every eyes.

And I felt the fear caught up to me in the inside .

Then .. I looked at her in the eyes . She was observing me .

Then ... I felt the touch in my heart , her touch .

And I felt like broken .. broken ..

I felt tears stung in my eyes . Oh how hard I wanted to cry .

And I felt her embrace : warm , loved and safe .

Then .. I gave up .

I cried .

I cried so hard I didn't know how to stop the tears .

But she hugged me close smoothed my soul.

" Hush now , hush "- I heard her whisper .

I didn't know how , but I felt safe .

I didn't know how, but I felt love .

It was so warm and sweet .

Suddenly , I felt like I was young again .

Suddenly , I just wanted to stay their forever

She was the one who dared to challenge me .

She was the one who feared but never ran away .

She was the one that make me fell over and over again yet every time when I looked into her emerald pools I felt like embraced by her love .

Yes, I love her and yet I can't tell .

I haven't told .

But then .. again .. when I hold her in my arms and felt she warmed me inside , I could tell ..

She knew already .

And I knew already .

I love you ..

..my ..

.... Kagome .

The end