Falling by Tensaiga

You bring tears to my eyes...

Title: Falling

Chapter 1: You bring tears to my eyes...

Rating: PG – 13

Summary: I'm Kagome. Inuyasha is my best friend in the world and my secret crush. We've known each other since we were practically born. Our parents are best friends, and I guess it runs in the family. There is nothing that we hid from each other. Honesty is essential in a friendship of any sort. Well okay so here are some secrets... See he has a girlfriend named Kikyo. Even though I don't like her personally, because of her mean attitude towards me, I can't deny his happiness. You know I felt like I was on top of the world. Then it all came tumbling down. My heart was broken by my best friend because of his girlfriend's wishes, and soon found myself moving away. I couldn't face him, but I came back just like most people. The only thing is that I think I'm falling in love with his brother... That can't be right though... I love Inuyasha... Right?

A piercing alarm woke me up from my deep slumber. I kept hitting it automatically hoping that it would stop and let me enjoy my warm comfortable bed just a little while longer. After hitting it so many times my fist felt sore, but at least the infernal beeping had stopped. Before I had the chance to enjoy my hard earned peace and quiet moment my mom opened the door with a bang. "Kagome, it's time to get up for school!" She hollered.

I groaned unintelligibly with my eyes still closed. "Just five more minutes mom." I threw the covers over my head hoping that she would just stop bothering me.

Mom's muffled voice came again with her tirade. "Kagome if you sleep any longer you will be late for school. It's already 7: 50 a.m." she lectured sternly. She was not about to back down and I knew she wouldn't.

"Wait...7:50?" I groaned

My eyes shot open faster than a speeding bullet and glanced at my mom who had her hands on her hips with a small smirk on her face. School started at 8:00 AM, why did my mom wait so long to wake me up? I groaned and moving sluggishly fast out of my comfy bed and comforters and ran into the bathroom in the hall passing a bewildered Souta. He blinked and continued down the hall shaking his head and mumbling about how weird girls are in the morning.

I washed my face, brushed my teeth, and rinsed quickly not even pausing to make sure my hair was not in disarray and zoomed out back into my room. I struggled with my uniform and hopped out of my room while putting on my socks one foot at a time trying not to trip on the way down on the stairs. I reached the kitchen in record time just to see my brother Souta still in his pajamas. Looking over to the microwave clock I glared and fumed silently. It was only 7: 30 AM.

My mom had tricked me into thinking that I was late for school...again. "Mom! It's no where near 7:55 AM." I glared at the stupid green digit numbers that seem to be flashing mockingly in my face.

"I know dear. It's the only way to wake you up, or would you prefer water?" she laughed light heartedly from the sink

I grumbled and sat down next to my brother who was snickering at my rude awakening episode. He might seem like a snotty little brat in the morning, but he had been helpful a couple of times. He was off the hook this time, but he better watch out for next time. Grinning slightly at my evil thoughts I started to eat my waffles after drowning them in syrup when the doorbell suddenly rang out its cheerful tune. I looked around if someone would get it for me, but everyone carried on eating. Loudly I sighed and went to open the door slowly and looked up. It was Inuyasha.

I quickly invited him in. He had long swaying silver hair and the deepest amber eyes that resembled like the sweetest honey. Sometimes I would drown myself in his intense gaze, but then I would remember that he already had a girlfriend. Now that I actually think about it, I was quite shocked that he came to my house in the morning. He hadn't done that for awhile. When he stopped my mom questioned me, but I told her he had participated in school sports and had to practice early in the morning. I didn't want to lie, but I didn't know the real reason either.

"Hello Inuyasha. What are you doing here?" I asked cheerfully giving one of my 100-watt smiles.

His smile soon turned into a frown and I followed suite as well. He was starting to worry me. He never looked this serious before and I didn't know what was wrong. Thinking about it just brought tears to my eyes. "What happened Inuyasha? You can tell me." I whispered as I invited him in.

Automatically he stepped in and sat himself on the couch in the living room. He was used to this and so was I.

"Kagome who is it?" my mom shouted from the kitchen.

"It's Inuyasha mom! We're going to talk in the living room." I yelled back.

Before starting I heard an okay from mom and faced back to Inuyasha. "What's wrong Inuyasha? Please tell me..." I whispered hoping that he still had trust in me. He looked so dejected in his slumped position on the couch with his hair that hid his eyes from me.

"Kikyo and I had a fight." He quietly whispered while all of a sudden being fascinated with the cream rug underneath his socks.

I could tell by the depressed look on his face that something she probably said had hurt him very badly.

"What happened? I mean what was the fight on?" I asked once again feeling somehow that the incident was indirectly related to me.

Inuyasha and Kikyo had gotten in a lot of fights together. Even if I wasn't with them most of the time I could tell when something wasn't right. Still if Kikyo or Inuyasha were doing something to hurt each other it wasn't really my business to try to fix it. It would be something that they both needed to figure out on their own.

"She said that I wasn't spending enough time with her. She said I was spending too much time with you so..." His voice lowered even more. Fear struck through me. I hope he wasn't going to say what I thought he was going to say. I couldn't stand the pressure any longer.

"So... So what Inuyasha? Tell me..." I asked as tears blurred my vision as my breath hitched in my throat.

"I came to say that I don't think we should be friends anymore. Kagome I –" Inuyasha started, but I cut him off suddenly not feeling that well.

My eyes were glistening with the tears that had yet to fall. My body was shocked and I stood still. It was as if my life flashed before my eyes. The times that we played when we were little, the times when we cried. All the happy memories we shared. Then slowly... we drifted apart. I shook my head left to right and again and again trying to think this was a really bad dream. This can't be happening. No... it can't... it's the only thing that would make him happy... I guess it's time... time to let go...

"It's... it's okay Inuyasha. I understand. It's for Kikyo right? So I don't mind. She deserves the best right? Well I have to go get my things to go to school. See you later?" I felt my heart broke as I tried to put up a smile and walked out trying not to raise suspicion how much that sentence had hurt me.

I walked away from Inuyasha. I didn't look back once as the memories replayed once again in my mind. I never could have imagined that we would lose our friendship. I knew he wouldn't be happy about this, but he wouldn't be sad either. My heart was drowning, breaking, and shattering into little tiny pieces at the same time. It was a one sided love... just one sided. I loved him, but I was just a best friend to him. Maybe I was just even a friend that could be thrown away once they had no use. It was a battle that I lost without even putting up a measly little fight.

Before I reached the top I looked back down at him. His head was bent down, but he didn't try to stop me. I knew he probably wouldn't. That was Inuyasha for you. He never did anything to hurt his pride or ego. He looked up at me and for the first time since he walked through that door and told me that one line that broke my heart, I saw guilt flash through his eyes. I always thought that he would be my best friend, but I guess I lost him. I hadn't even been spending that much time with Inuyasha at all. Kikyo was always jealous of our friendship, but she just crossed the line for me. I wanted to talk some sense into her and beat her senseless, but I couldn't. Inuyasha would never forgive me and I would never forgive myself if he never talked to me again. There was nothing I could do. I lose both ways.

"Checkmate." I uttered softly.

Before I left I heard him reply...

"Maybe..."

I went upstairs into my room while Inuyasha went out the door. I slumped and slid down my door as soon as I heard the door closed in one final click. After being friends for 16 years he decides to not be my friend. It hurt, but if not being friends with each other made him happy, than I won't be his friend. My heart felt like a broken mirror on the floor, the scattered pieces could never be put together again. The shocking thing was that I had actually loved him. I gazed out the window and whispered to myself as if finally leaving heavy burden behind.

"Inuyasha no matter what you will always be my best friend. No one can replace you...ever."

I got my things ready for school and went downstairs with a heavy heart. I ignored the worried glances that mom gave me and headed straight towards the door not noticing my surroundings. Quickly I wiped my tears on my sleeve and half way out the door I stumbled with the thought how the mighty had fallen. I wiped off my tears once again and raced out of the house before anyone could question me. Within 10 minutes I was at school. I dragged my feet along the pavement and glanced at the building with tired and slightly swollen eyes. I knew that it was going to be a hard day for me, but I could make through if I tried. I looked at my watch. I still had 5 minutes before school started so I headed towards it anyway. I didn't feel like talking to anyone, but luck wasn't on my side.

A tall boy came towards me. He had jet-black hair, and not to mention piercing striking blue eyes. He was kind and sweet, but not someone I would generally date. I saw him walking towards me with an arrogant aura around him. Quickly I looked around hoping someone would save me, but no one was there. I sighed and braced myself for the barrage of nonsense that the guy will talk about.

"Kagome would you like to go out with me since Inuyasha isn't breathing down your neck anymore? You know I am a better choice." He beamed confidently and I edged away slowly. He was seriously creeping me out with all his ego filled comments about himself and asking me to go out on dates with him.

"Umm... Kouga I can't. I have a dentist appointment on Saturday. I can't go out during the week, and I have a check up on Sunday. Sorry maybe next time." I apologized, though none on what I had said was true even though I felt kind of bad that I sort of lead him on.

"It's alright maybe when you aren't as busy." He smiled kindly at me. He was such a sweet guy though when he wants to be.

"Sure why not." I replied sighing to myself mentally.

I went inside and saw everyone staring at me every now and then. Was it that everyone knew of my misfortune? I always wondered how people found other peoples' bad luck a source of entertainment. I too sometimes wondered that, but now I wanted an answer. I sighed and walked over to my locker. Opening it I found it filled with pictures of friends, families, and pets. Tears reached my eyes, but I furiously blinked to get rid of them. After placing the unnecessary books in my locker I headed towards class.

Slowly I was about to head towards my desk, but remembered I sat in front of Inuyasha. I couldn't face him today after what happened this morning. I went over and took a seat by Sango, my friend. She looked over at me with a surprised expression on her face. I guess it was shocking news to her considering the fact that I always sat with Inuyasha. She was the only other friend I have, besides Miroku, but he was a pervert and I don't think that I can handle his lewd comments and behaviour today.

"Kagome? What's wrong?" Sango asked me worriedly and touched my forehead. "Nope, you don't have a fever. You never wander far from Inuyasha and here you are! What's the problem?"

I looked over at her. She always knew when something was wrong. I always thought that maybe secretly she was psychic or something. I sadly smiled. "Inuyasha came to my house this morning..." I started off.

"Then why are you so sad?" Sango frowned at me slightly.

"I sometimes think you're psychic. He came to my house all right?" My eyes blurred again and I felt a tear roll down my cheek and onto my lap. "He came just to tell me that he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. It's his precious Kikyo's wishes." I sadly laughed gazing out the window trying to avoid Sango's gaze.

I heard the shuffling of a chair. The next thing I know, Sango was hugging me. I know she was trying to comfort me and it was working in a way. Sango was like a sister I never had. I felt myself feeling comforted and felt better. In a few minutes she let go and sat down next to me. Moments later, I saw her glare angrily behind me. I turned around to see that she was glaring at Inuyasha and Kikyo. I felt a pang of heartache, but I really didn't know why anymore. I saw the couples' arms around each other's waists and looked up to meet Kikyo's icy stare.

She smirked at me. Her lips moved and I saw the words that were being mouthed silently towards me. "He's all mine and there's nothing you can do about it." That was what she was gloating about. The words kept playing in my head like a broken record. Had I really lost him? I sadly smiled and turned around to face Sango's worried face. I smiled to reassure her but as I thought back into the past, I knew it wouldn't be long until my life would have taken a sharp turn, but I didn't think it would be so soon.

After class Sango told me to give her full details and I did. It was a long and painful conversation, but I held on. I told her everything from his visit, to my love for him. She gasped, but I already knew that she knew that I love him. After the bell rang, we headed towards our next class and I prepared myself as I saw Inuyasha running up to me.

Sango was about to lunge at him, but I stopped her just in time. She huffed and crossed her arms and settled to glare at the approaching figure. I felt as if she were my own personal bodyguard I mused silently. Inuyasha came to a stop before us and took deep breaths trying to compose himself before looking at me in the eye and spoke. "Kagome I am really sorry that I said what I said, but I had to. You believe me right?" he asked giving me his puppy dog eyes.

I smiled a little at the look, but I was still feeling sad. I nodded. "I believe you Inuyasha." I twisted my head to the side trying to hide the grief stricken expression on my face.

Sango couldn't stand the conversation any longer and stomped up to Inuyasha and grabbed his shirt around the neck and shook him like a rag doll. "Damn right she believes you! You are so lucky that Kagome is such a forgiving person. You're also lucky that she still considers you a friend at some level or oh boy, would you be in pain!" She shouted angrily at Inuyasha.

I saw Inuyasha wince at her forceful tone, then looked at me. I know he was sorry, or at least I think he is. You know ever since this morning I don't know what to believe in anymore. He promised me we'd be best friends forever, but I don't think forever is going to happen soon. "Inuyasha it's okay, I believe you... I guess I do at least. At least you can keep this promise to Kikyo right? I mean ours was nothing..." I let the sentence drift.

I saw him looking at me quizzically. I guess he forgot about the promise we made to each other. It was the promise, which made us friends forever. It never meant anything to him. I looked over and saw him trying to think. Then a look of realization hit his face. "Kagome..." he whispered.

"It's okay. I... never mind it was a silly promise anyway. I mean you and me..." I tried to explain, but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth right.

Slowly I went around him and walked to my next class. This was going to be long I knew it. I trusted Inuyasha I guess, but it made me wonder. If I were to forgive him, would he betray me again? Betray out friendship? I was never the one to hold a grudge, but my feelings came into the equation. I had to forgive Inuyasha no doubt about that. I have always come to believe that everyone deserves a second chance.

After school I raced home. I didn't feel like spending time after school and watching Inuyasha with Kikyo. She would probably think up of something evil for him to do if I was around. Life was so simple back then when we were kids. Where were the good old times, as I like to call them. I smiled sadly as I opened the door.

"Mom? Souta? Grandpa?" I loudly asked as I stepped on to the polished hardwood floor and took off my shoes and put it aside near the door.

My mom came into the living room and smiled at me. "Hello dear, how was school? Oh and how is Inuyasha?" she asked me.

Tears once again came to my eyes and spilled. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. She had to bring up that name. It felt as if a dam within me broke and the flood was rushing out freely. I saw a frown on my mother's face as she walked towards me. My mom engulfed me in a hug and rubbed soothing circles on my back to comfort me. She made sound to shush me and I soon complied with soft hiccups. "What happened dear?" she asked me when my crying became whimpers.

"This morning Inuyasha said he didn't want to be my friend anymore... and..." I started crying again in her shirt.

To most people it wouldn't matter, but to me it meant everything. It was like losing a part of me, or a family member. My mom gasped and pulled back to look at me with eyes that made me tear up again. Then I saw her in deep thought and she broke out into a smile. What was she up to? It was the only thing I could wonder at my current state. "Why don't you take a break from Inuyasha for a while? It would be good for you." she suggested with a slight squeeze around my shoulders.

"Mom I have to go to school..." I reminded her while the tears still rolled down my face.

"Well I was going to tell everyone at dinner, but I got a new job in Kyoto and we are going to move. It would be a great way to get your mind off of Inuyasha, and to top it off, you can still visit your friends." She smiled looking to see if I would approve at her idea.

I frowned a bit. I didn't know if it was such a good plan. I didn't want to leave my friends, but then again with the current lack of relationship with Inuyasha, I need a break from him. I need to get away and sort everything out until my mind is clear and my heart repairs from the heartache that he caused me. It wasn't going as I had planned and I never know what I would do without him. He was my everything and now I wasn't sure anymore. This was one golden opportunity that I wasn't going to miss.

"When are we leaving?" I asked with a new sense of hope in my mind.

"In two days." Mom answered and left me to my thoughts.

I gasped at how sudden the departure was. I had one day to tell Sango and Miroku goodbye.

What about Inuyasha? Would I tell him? Should I tell him? Is it worth it? What am I going to do? Is this how all our lives end and begin once again, or is this just a way to run away from my fears? It was a way to begin anew and I hope that I would forget all these memories that only seem to bring me more pain mentally. But I know that wasn't possible. These memories would always be with me forever and there was nothing I could do about it. Who knows, maybe something good would come out from it. You bring me tears of sadness and joy... Inuyasha...

So is someone going to tell me if this version of chapter one is better??? I had my Beta (Torry) check it up for me. She did like an amazing job, but I want to know what you think!