Your Eyes Are Like Starlight Now by *~*Missy*~*

Maybe just a cigarette more...

Kagome couldn't believe what she was doing under the guise of going shopping and frankly she was surprised that Bankotsu had not so much as called or texted her by now. She felt bad for taking advantage of his trust. But this was Christmas wasn't it? Didn't she deserve to give herself some sort of gift as well?

That's one hell of gift, cheating on your boyfriend. The voice in her head rose up and said spitefully to her.

But we're not even dating yet.

A fine excuse.

She hated to admit it but the voice was right. What she was doing was entirely wrong. But Sesshomaru's words were so convincing and alluring and she could just feel it, how close being able to feel was. And despite how much she knew it was wrong she wanted it, wanted to be able to feel again. She missed being a whole person, not the shell that she was now, and part of her felt that if only she could achieve this with Sesshomaru then maybe she would be able to get a little part of her old self back.

So she gave herself over to Sesshomaru and she felt something for once. Through the course of the next hour she fell apart in his arms and after that she fell asleep and finally she was able to rest, her visions were not plagued of her friends who had died, her short comings, the things she could have done but was too weak to do. No for the first time in a year Kagome was able to have true rest.