The Snow Angel by SunsetMiko

The Risk

Chapter 96 - The Risk *Broken Wings* (Stella's Soundtrack Challenge)

He was enjoying their snuggling, and her light touches so very much, but a part of his mind decided that he had to ask. He knew it was stupid, that he was risking every bit of progress he had made with the miko, but he still had to know.

"Kagome?" he asked softly.

She turned her head to look up at him and smiled. "Yeah?"

"Do you," he started before letting out a small sigh of frustration. Why was he doing this? Was he really that stupid to push her before she was ready out of a miniscule amount of hope that she might answer in his favor? He stared into her beautiful blue eyes and went for it. "Do you care for this Sesshoumaru at all?"

Kagome tensed against him, and the taiyoukai immediately began to mentally berate himself. He screwed it up and ruined everything, sending them right back to square one, if not even further. His stupidity destroyed any chance he had at happiness.

The miko watched as his eyes filled with visible terror. She felt sorry for him and decided to set his mind at ease as best she could. She sat up, feeling as he followed suit, his mouth opening in an attempt to take back his words, but she stopped him cold. Kagome pressed one hand to his chest, pushing him back into his semi-reclined position, before straddling his hips as she had in the past. She could see the confusion in his swirling golden eyes and reached up to cup his cheek.

"Sesshoumaru, I..." She paused, trying to figure out how to word what she wanted to say so that she was as clear as possible. "I do. Of course I care about you. You're my friend." She watched as his shoulders fell in defeat, and she pushed forward. "You've shared so much with me. Spending all this time with you has been amazing. You're so different than I had always thought you were. And I do... I do care about you. I'm just so... I don't know. I just..." Beyond frustrated with her inability to phrase her thoughts, she leaned forward instead and pressed her lips to his.

The taiyoukai's eyes widened before falling closed, and he immediately responded to her kiss. One hand came up to rest on her back while the other burrowed into her hair. The passion she was pouring into their kiss was enough to burn him, and he relished the feeling. She shifted against him, pressing her core against his still painfully throbbing erection, and he couldn't help but groan.

Kagome pulled back to look at him before shifting again, his hand still clinging to her hair, and a smile slowly spreading across her face as she watched the pleasure painted so plainly on his. She started a lazy rhythm, rolling her hips while leaning down to kiss him again. She whimpered against his lips as his cock hit just the right spot, and she moved faster.

As much as he was enjoying every second of what they were doing, he didn't want this. He didn't want her to do this only to make him feel better. He didn't need a pity fuck, or a pity dry hump, as the case may be. He wanted her heart, not just her body. He had to fight against himself to pull away, his gentle hold on her hair keeping her from following.

"Kagome, please," he whispered, hating himself for stopping her.

"Sesshoumaru," she whimpered. "Yes. Yes, I care about you. I just... I can't."

"Can't what?" he asked desperately.

The miko leaned in and pressed her lips to his again. She so wanted to tell him she was falling and quickly losing herself to him, but her fear of being hurt again overwhelmed her.

When she pulled back again, suddenly he could see it, the fear in her eyes. His angel was hurting, terrified of risking her heart, and guilt washed over him again. He was pushing her for something she wasn't ready for.

"Kagome, I'm sorry," he whispered in her ear, his lips brushing the rounded shell. "I don't need to hear it. You don't have to say anything. I love you. I will always love you, and I will never hurt you. I promise. I swear on my very soul that you have nothing to fear."

The miko sighed and pressed her face into his shoulder, nuzzling against the fur still wrapped around his neck. "You're too good. I... I want to. I really do."

Sesshoumaru's mind took off in a whirlwind of thoughts again. She wanted to... what? Love him? Or tell him she loved him? He wanted to scream in frustration, but thankfully she kissed him again, distracting him from his confusion. She pulled back with a soft sigh and snuggled down against him, laying her head on his chest. The taiyoukai gently nosed her hair, breathing her in, and tried his best to relax. Having her basically sitting on his cock with so very little clothes on, however, made that incredibly difficult, even as he heard her breathing even out as she drifted off to sleep.