A Demon's Heart by KittenBlue

Shattered World

A/N my first Dokuga story, and my first SessKag in years. I have no beta, please excuse my mistakes!

4/3/14 Editted slightly. Will be continued shortly. Lost the original when I moved and lost my computer. Taking volunteers as betas. 

"It's her." The whispers had already started, but she paid them no heed, after all, she was use to them by now. "The commoner." She tossed her hair over her shoulder as she passed the many dark haired inu youkai, not caring too much for their opinions any more. She held her head high, allowing her long flowing tail to curl around both of her shoulders, much like Inu no Taisho's alpha female did with her mokomoko. Unlike the royal family, Kagome chose to store her additional power in a tail rather than something she would simply carry around. She had always liked the idea of a tail, anyway. The additional power would come in handy in case of an emergency: such as so many minor wounds it becomes fatal.

The jewel would sheild her from any fatal wound, but if it's not a fatal blow it didn't seem to mind if she died from infection or something along a more natural line of death. Not that many infections could effect her, now days, but it was still something to think about.

Some speculated her way of holding her tail was to hide the fact she bore no markings. They couldn't be farther from the truth. It was a way to hide that she had one, on the back of her neck.

The mark of Midoriko's curse. The Shikon no Tama had imbedded itself in her, forcing her to forever carry the burden of protecting it. She kept her hand from twitching, wanting to stroke the jewel in a disgusted caress. She loathed it for it's existance, but loathed herself more.

Her nose lifted into the air as she proudly made her way into the palace. If she hadn't made that wish, she would still be human, and with InuYasha. However, the wish had been made, selfish as it was, and there was nothing she could do about it.

"Why would they call upon her? I heard she was their new seer." An auburn inu youkai murmured, almost disgusted at the thought that an unmarked common place female could make her way into the courts. His tone reminded her of how some had talked of InuYasha.

But, InuYasha now never existed, and never would. She had seen it in a vision: Izayoi and InuYasha both died that night, before Inu no Taisho ever even knew they were in danger. At the time, she had rushed forward, screaming for him to help Izayoi, but they had not believed her. Sesshoumaru had looked down at her, informing her that her words were a sign that she was a traitor. Later, they would try to get information from her, attempting to torture her.

Sesshoumaru's acid had moved, seemingly on its own, surrounding her, but never touching her. Later, she confessed to the western lord and his prince that the Shikon no Tama would not allow them to kill her, as it's guardian.

That caused a whole new set of questions, but she would not talk to Sesshoumaru or his mother. It took three days, but she looked Inu no Taisho in the eye and told him the truth. "A miko I am, but a demoness as well. A hanyou boy stole my heart, and crushed it, in my pain I had wished to have never met him. My wish was granted, and I hate myself for it." Her chin lifted in the air, despite the fact she was bound and naked. "Though I had never meant for this outcome, I killed your son with my wish."

In his anger the dog general would have killed her, if the shikon had not blocked his blows.

When she reached her destination, Kagome lifted her elegant kimono slightly as she turned to face the crowd, never allowing the cold mask to fall.

"On this day, we have defeated the dragon clan head: Ryukotsusei. This battle would have ended in disaster if it weren't for the Throne's Seer. I acknowledge her skills, and her loyalty to her alpha male. To act against her will result in death." Inu no Taisho said, standing, ever tall and proud as a man of his station should. "As an unmated female of the courts, she shall choose her mate of her own accord if she should feel the need. We are gathered today to celebrate our victory, and the newest member of the Royal Courts..."

The speech had droned on, and had stirred the audience into celebratory howls.

The celebrations began shortly after, and Kagome found herself heading to her rooms, unwilling to participate in such celebrations. She knew Inu no Taisho wished for her to find a mate, however, she was sure she could never love another. InuYasha had stolen her heart and died with it. As she reached her rooms, she allowed a tear to run down her cheek.

She had truly killed him, and there was nothing she could do about it.

Her heart clenched and she began to change herself, having dismissed the handmaidens given to her long before. She would not be waited on hand and foot.

She pulled on a pair of billowing white pants, much like the ones Sesshoumaru wore. Her top was made of fire rat fur, and was an altered version of what InuYasha had worn. It wrapped around her tighter, accenting her curves to an extent, and had slits in the side, leaving fabric to drape down to her knees in front and behind her. Around it's middle was a simple white obi littered with red cherry blossoms, and a silver dragon, almost unseen with the delicate way it had been sewn on, slithering behind the sakura. The red and black petals were a way to represent her hate of the pure beings of humanity, a way to say she hated herself. The dragon was a masculine symbol, representing the fact she could and would take care of herself, even if she did mate. The Obidome was a simple silver crescent moon, letting all know she was loyal to the silver inu of the west; the royal family.

She turned and left her rooms then, a passive mask in place. She made her way to the roofs and stared up at the moon.

She had expected him to follow, as he and his mother still did not trust her, nor would they. They didn't accept her role in the pack, because she had secrets. She turned slightly, nodding towards him.

"Lord Sesshoumaru." She acknowledged, but he narrowed his eyes at her. She did not pretend to smile, she simply shook her head. He was always like this.

"This Sesshoumaru demands the truth." Sesshoumaru said and Kagome's eyes drifted over to him.

"I have told the truth."

"You are no seer." He said, his knuckles cracking. "Your power is nothing without the Shikon no Tama."

Kagome turned to him. "I will not lie, in part it is because of the Shikon no Tama, but neither borrowed nor taken." Her eyes drifted back to the moon. "The Shikon no Tama is nothing but a burden." She seemed to glow under it's light, but he refused to notice such things. She was beautiful, but she was not worth his time. She was scheming, she had to be. She was simply too willing to do as asked, too willing to become a tool. He did not, would not trust her.

A common black inu among the royal silvers would never be worth his time.

Sesshoumaru stared at her for long moments. "Then what is it you wish."

Kagome's eyes snapped to him, a little angry and Sesshoumaru saw the pain in her eyes. "I wasted my wish, it resulted in nothing but misery." Her eyes changed, softening only slightly. "Though, I suppose, you are happier now than you would have been." Still, unless she found a way to connect himself and Rin, Kagome knew it would be hard for him to grow as a person.

Sesshoumaru bared his teeth. "You know nothing."

Kagome shook her head. "If that were true, Lord Sesshoumaru, then perhaps I could find happiness once more."

"You wish for more power." Sesshoumaru said, lifting his nose. "Disgusting." And he truly was disgusted in her, those of lower status should be happy to gain such power. She had been placed along side the royal family, had the shikon no tama, what more did she want?

Kagome smiled softly. "I guess it could be considered that, in a way." Her sapphire eyes drifted closed and she, for the first time, truly smiled. "Love is the greatest power I have ever come across." Her hand came up as if to reach for the moon, only to drop back down to her side. "Yet it is fleeting, and will never return to me."

Sesshoumaru scoffed. Kagome's eyes locked onto his, for the very first time, as they reminded her of InuYasha's. Her eyes softened. "I wonder if he would have grown to look more like you with age..."

"You speak nonsense." He said and Kagome sat down, for once letting her tail loose.

"I suppose I do." She paused, allowing herself to chuckle. "I suppose it wouldn't hurt to tell you, after all, once upon a time you were involved as well."

He stared down at her, frowning. She was a strange one, but maybe if he got her talking she would reveal to him her plan. However, she turned her back to him. "One day, Sesshoumaru, I will tell you a tale." She said, walking away with a grace that he had learned was rare from her, and only came to the for front when she was extremely emotional. "A tale about a ningen girl who became a monster."

 

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