The Clouds As Witnesses by Jojosephinesbizarreadventure

The Edge

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters from the Inuyasha show. Those all belong to Rumiko Takahashi & her brilliant mind. I also do not own any of the music that will be mentioned, I will credit every artist at the beginning of every chapter!

Sorry for the late update, my work schedule has been pretty crazy this week. I work at a hospital on a COVID unit & we've been busy this week!

I'm going to try to upload every Friday, if it's not posted by Friday it'll be up by Saturday! Thank you for your patience 3

TW/ immense sadness

Song for this Chapter:

The Edge by Panicland

"And you remember the time Inuyasha was possessed by Shouga and started stripping for Shippo?" Kagome wheezed.

This earned a howl of laughter from Sango and Miroku, the trio were all clutching their stomachs in pain from laughter. The trio was sitting cross-legged on the floor of Sango's cabin. The living room was the best description Kagome had for it. It was in the middle of the house, there was a small fireplace where meals were prepared, and a table with some chairs near the front door. Sango and Miroku's room was on the east side of the house, and Kagome avoided it like the plague. God knows what she'd find in there

Miroku and Sango were sitting side by side, Miroku's arm draped around Sango's shoulder. Kagome sat opposite of them crossed legged and relaxed, more relaxed than she'd been in a while.

"Shhh shhh, we're going to wake the kids!" Sango managed to get out between laughs.

Aimi and Airi were the youngest, a gorgeous pair of twins Sango had a year ago. Both little brunettes, the only thing that separated them was their eyes. Aimi had glistening emerald green eyes, while Airi had rich mahogany eyes. They shared a room on the west side of the house. The twins were just like Miroku, deadly charming and always causing mischief. They kept Kagome on her toes when she was watching them. It's crazy that at such a young age they were showing so much personality, Kagome just knew when they grew up they'd be heartbreakers.

Their eldest child, Hisui, is a boy. He was born less than a year after Kagome's departure, and his fourth birthday was creeping up upon him. Hisui was more like Sango, a cool demeanor with his large heart hidden underneath. He rarely cried or caused a fuss, and was already showing interest in fighting like his mother. Hisui's room was across the hall from the girl's room.

Both rooms were quite spacious for the period, there was plenty of room for more beds should Sango carry any more children.

Still wiping tears from her eyes Kagome sighed,

"Oh goodness, it seems like a lifetime ago we all traveled together."

"Indeed, though I wouldn't trade our current lifestyle for anything." Miroku draped an arm around Sango, they seemed happier than ever.

I wish Inuyasha was here.

"How are things with you and Inuyasha?" Sango questioned, a slight furrow in her brow as she studied Kagome's face.

"Oh well you know, it's been the same! We've been doing well recently!"

"Has it now?" Miroku asked, skeptical eyes trained on her face.

Kagome's face flushed "W-well y-yeah, I mean, shoot who am I kidding," tears started to pool in her cerulean eyes, "We've had it rough recently. I love Inuyasha so much, every day he pulls further and further away from me. I don't know why. He doesn't communicate with me and we just end up arguing any time he's home." Tears were flowing freely down Kagome's face now.

"I see," a sympathetic look shared between Miroku and Sango.

Sango rose and planted herself next to Kagome, embracing her as if she were one of her children. Sango had one hand rubbing small circles on her back while the other was wrapped around her person, Kagome leaned into Sango's embrace.

"Kagome I'm so sorry."

"I-I just don't know what to do. It feels more like we're roommates instead of a couple. His distance is suffocating, and the way he looks at me, Kami. Sometimes it's like he resents me for existing. I keep telling myself it's all in my head, that he still loves me. That we're just going through a rough patch. But I just don't know-" a hiccup slipped out of Kagome, which was enough to send her over the edge.

Crying uncontrollably, Kagome clutched onto Sango as her life depended on it. Sango, still rubbing soothing circles around her back, rested her face atop of Kagome's head.

For a while, they sat just like that, until it seemed Kagome had no tears left in her body. Still, in Sango's motherly embrace, Kagome was able to take a few calming breaths.

"Kagome my dear, at some point in a relationship we all come to a crossroads, and we have two options from there," Miroku started, "You can either keep fighting for Inuyasha and your relationship, or you can move on. Sometimes you progress all you can with a person, you reach the limit of what you can learn together before things sour. That's when you have to learn to walk away. Once you've looked at your relationship, you can decide whether it's time to go or to stay. No matter your decision you will always be family to Sango, the kids, and me, and you will always have a home with us."

"Thank you, Miroku." Sniffling, Kagome sat back on her heels hugging her knees to her chest, and she offered Sango a watery smile.

You will always be family to me too.

Sango cupped Kagome's face with one hand and smiled her damp smile, "You know we love you Kagome, more than anything else we want you to be happy."

I want to be happy too.

At that moment one of the girls started crying, Sango rose to her feet, groaning as she did.

"I'll be back." Kissing Miroku on the head as she passed, Sango walked down the short hall to the girl's room.

Kagome watched the interaction longingly, before looking to the fireplace.

"How do you do it? You and Sango make it look so easy." Kagome asked, her eyes still resting on the dying fire.

"Hm, I'm not sure, honestly sometimes it's as easy as breathing. Other times we miscommunicate over the silliest things. You've seen your fair share of our arguments. We have our moments of anger, sadness, and frustration just like any other couple, but with Sango, it's easy to move past them. There's nothing I wouldn't do for her. She's such an amazing woman, mother, and lover. She's been the biggest blessing in my life." Miroku said thoughtfully.

I wonder if Inuyasha thinks of me that way. The thought almost brought tears back to Kagome's eyes. Almost.

"That's...sweet, that's how I feel about Inuyasha, I'd do anything just to make him happy. It just seems like nothing is cutting it right now." she ran a hand over her face, then through her onyx locks leaving them a mess. "What should I do, Miroku?"

Miroku pondered her question momentarily, "Fight for him. If it was Sango I'd fight for her, I'd figure out where the disconnect is and try to fix it. I think you should too."

I fought for him the whole time when Kikyo was around. Should I keep fighting?

Kagome and Miroku set appreciating the stillness around them. It wasn't until Sango reappeared that anything was said.

Finding her resolve Kagome stood, stamping her foot softly, "I'm going to talk with Inuyasha, we've been through too much together to give up now. I don't know what his issue is lately but I'm going to figure it out!" her hands met her hips with an attitude of finality.

Sango smiled her usual warm smile, embracing Kagome once again. This time the hug was tight and encouraging. "You can do this Kagome, we're so proud of you."

"I love you guys, I'm gonna go find him. Wish me luck!" Kagome said over her shoulder. Sterling herself, she headed out.

The night was mild and the sky was clear, sparkling with glimmers of light.

The sky is never this clear back home, I'll never get used to how breathtaking the sky looks here.

Kagome paused, taking a moment to drink in the sight above her. The moon was full, pouring its gentle rays down on everything around her. The breeze was still going, slightly warmer than it had been. She saw a figure pass in front of the moon, anyone else wouldn't have believed their eyes. A man on a cloud? Preposterous. But Kagome knew better, Sesshomaru was just now leaving from visiting Rin.

I hope he listens to me.

A voice startled Kagome out of her thoughts, and the person she'd been hoping to see was standing behind her.

"Wench, what are ya doing out here?" Inuyasha asked, his arms crossed and brow furrowed.

"Oh Inuyasha, I've missed you!" Kagome flung herself around his neck. Holding him tightly, she could feel his body stiffen under her touch.

"Well you don't have to smother me, you didn't answer my question either." Inuyasha fussed as he finally hugged Kagome back.

"Oh I'm sorry, I was just coming home from dinner. I ate with Sango and Miroku tonight. I can cook you something when we get home if you like!" Kagome said, releasing Inuyasha and grabbing his hand. Kagome started to walk towards their house, however, Inuyasha's hesitance stopped her.

"I'm not hungry, anyway I have something I need to talk to you about. Let's go to Goshinboku." Still holding her hand Inuyasha walked with purpose towards Goshinboku, the opposite direction of their cabin.

"O-okay." Kagome agreed.

The Goshinboku was their place, they first met there, Inuyasha was pinned to the tree by Kikyo. Kagome's whole life changed under that tree. The couple walked in silence, an almost tense silence. Kagome tried to convince herself she was overthinking the situation, that the silence wasn't tense but comfortable. Besides, Inuyasha kept throwing small smiles over his shoulder for her as they trekked along.

When they arrived Inuyasha released her hand and stopped before the tree. Kagome approached even closer to the tree, running her hand over the hole that remained.

"I remember that day, meeting you for the first time. I was so scared that the demon was going to kill me. But there you were to save the day," Kagome stilled her movements on the tree, her hand now resting in place over the hole. "You know you changed my life Inuyasha, who knows how different my life could've been if I never met you. I know we've been having a rough patch lately, but I want to talk it out. I want to fix whatever is going on between us, so we can be happy again. I love you so much Inuyasha." Kagome gushed, stepping away from the tree, closing the distance between them with a kiss.

The kiss was fleeting, and it ended much sooner than Kagome hoped. Inuyasha had placed his hands on her shoulders and gently pushed her away.

"Yeah, Kagome, that's what I needed to talk to you about. I think we need to break up."

"What?" Kagome asked, surely her ears were playing tricks on her.

"I- I think we should stop being together," Inuyasha repeated, his eyes fixed on the ground.

An eternity of silence passed between them. Kagome stared at Inuyasha in disbelief, while he kept his eyes on the ground.

He's just joking, he has to be.

"You're kidding right?"

Inuyasha shook his head.

"Why?" Kagome asked, she was starting to shake.

"I don't love you. Not like you want. I tried to, kami knows I did but you're not what I want. Every time I look at you I think of Kikyo. I thought that would pass after she-" Inuyasha choked, shook his head a bit then continued, "Anyway, you deserve someone who wants to put effort into a relationship. Someone who will love you the way you need. Not me."

Her chest was heavy, tight, almost like someone put a stack of textbooks on her and expected her to breathe. She felt like her entire world was crumbling around her. Kagome fell to her knees, her hands clutching at her chest. She couldn't feel anything but soul-crushing pressure around her, she didn't even hear Inuyasha asking if she was okay.

"Why Inuyasha?" That was all she could say.

"I'm sorry Kagome, I really am. I thought I could be happy with you, that we could be happy together. You're not what I want." Inuyasha whispered, he was crouched in front of Kagome, staring at her intently.

"I'm..not what you want?" Kagome repeated.

"No Kagome, I don't want you anymore. Not like you want me. You'll always be in my heart, but as nothing more than a friend. I'm sorry" Inuyasha stood and made moves to walk away.

Kagome panicked, she stumbled to her feet and hugged Inuyasha from behind. Tears she didn't know were falling soaked the back of his robe, "Please Inuyasha don't go, we can fix this. I don't want us to be over, please please just stay." She was begging, "You're still the same person I fell in love with, I'm still the same person you fell in love with, we can fix this!"

Stilling, Inuyasha hung his head, "No, we can't. I've never loved you the way you wanted me to." He pulled out of her grip and ran off into the forest.

Stunned Kagome stood there for a moment, unable to think, unable to do anything other than feel the crushing weight of sadness seep its way into her bones. Kagome never knew she could feel this way. It's as if the world stopped turning.

Then she started running, following his aura the best she could, stumbling through the thick forest barely able to see a foot in front of her. Tears streamed steadily down her face, breathing harder than she ever thought she could until she lost his aura. She kept running still, not knowing where her legs were taking her, she didn't stop until she came upon the Bone Eater's Well.

Kagome put her hands on the side of the well, staring down into the bottom. Without a second thought, she jumped over the edge, praying it'd take her back to her time, to her home. She could see her mother, and ask her what to do. Find comfort in her little brother's antics or even her grandpa's elaborate stories.

Once again Kagome was met with disappointment. Her legs hit the bone-riddled bottom of the well, and she fell to her hands and knees.

Momma, Souta, I need you, I miss you.

Kagome hardly felt the scratches and blood trickling down her legs from her harsh landing. She didn't notice that storm clouds had rolled in and they were now dumping bone-chilling rain on her. All she could think of was Inuyasha's words. They stabbed through her heart like a knife and twisted at every thought she had.

I don't want you, I don't love you.

Sobs racked her body uncontrollably now, Kagome curled into a ball on her side. Her hands covered her face as she let the tears fall freely.

But I love you Inuyasha, I love you so much. Please don't give up on me. Don't give up on us.

Kagome repeated this over and over like a prayer, hoping this was just a bad dream and she'll wake up in her room tomorrow morning. After some time exhaustion took over Kagome, and before she knew it she fell asleep.

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Happy holidays everyone, I hope everyone was safe and spent time with family! Don't forget we hate Christopher Columbus! I hope y'all enjoy this chapter! <3