A Life that's Not so Perfect by Vou-sama

You forget, I was raised by Okaasan to be independent....

 

Disclaimer:

I make no profit by writing this story.

The Inu-tachi and people belong to Takahashi Rumiko-san.

[this'll be the ONLY time I mention this]

The lyrics of "The Last Night" belongs to Skillet and their respective writers.

 

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A couple months had passed since their mating ceremony - the mating of Daiyoukai Lord Sesshomaru of the West to the Shikon Miko Lady Kagome. The ceremony had gone just as planned. The flowers were brilliant - ivory and rouge due to it being the hues of the Taishou Clan. Of course, as soon as the bliss had appeased, the life at Genkoutsu, the Western Stronghold, went back to a normal pace.

Sesshomaru had bedded his lovely mate in a most affectionate manner, but his attitude of being a Daiyoukai warrior returned. He was affectionate at certain times when in his bedchambers, but it was not so when he was elsewhere. And it only got worse when the Dai started his scouting missions again since Naraku was still a threat. Kagome was not to leave, he had specifically ordered, because she now held the completed Shikon no Tama and it was protected best at Genkoutsu.

Of course, everyone accepted this but one Miko. She was not used to being ordered around as such and it annoyed her that she was expected to behave like a normal Youkai bitch. The raven-haired youth was not going to submit so easily. Sure, Sesshomaru had won her heart, but he was going to learn that she was feisty and still had a long way to get her complete submission. Kagome learned to be independent and it was going to stay that way.

"

You come to me with scars on your wrist

You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this

I just came to say goodbye

I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine

But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be

The last night you'll spend alone

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go

I'm everything you need me to be

"

It was a bright crisp Spring morning and Sesshomaru had left with his assistant Jaken, the Imp youkai. Rin, his Ward, was to stay with Kagome and learn to be a lady since she was entering her prepubescent years.

Kagome, garbed in a simple green yukata, removed herself from the confines of her bed. It had been nearly nine weeks since her lover had gone. And it was close to him returning, but she didn’t know that. Sesshomaru had decided to keep this information withheld from her as punishment for interfering with the way servants were treated. Her personal maid, a human named Koyuki, stood waiting for her.

“Good morning Kagome. I hope you slept well?” She asked in a sing-song voice.  Her face fell at the sight of the bags under her Lady’s eyes. The usually sparkling sapphire orbs were naught but dull. Her hair fell in gentle waves, down to her waist; slender fingers went to the sash and released it so the material fell from her five-six frame.

Koyuki’s eyes widened at the cuts marring Kagome’s left hip and wrists. She saw that old blood had caked on the little slivers, and she could not help but gasp. “M-Milady! What of your regard for our Lord? He will not be pleased when he sees his mate has such cuts. We must heal them before he returns!”

Before Koyuki could put a hand on the miko, she flared her powers. Eyes glowed pinkish red. “You question my intentions to that insufferable mongrel?! He could rott in the pits of Hell for all I care! I hate it here. I hate not being able to leave. I /hate/ that I now carry his child and he isn‘t here to comfort me! He doesn‘t even tell me when he‘s to return to Genkoutsu. He could be dead… he makes me worry. I hate him for it. I hope he dies. He will have naught to do with my child. ”

Koyuki called for the Healer and for her to bring a sedative to calm the Lady down. She was now going insane with lack of sleep. She said that she was now carrying the Heir of the West? There was no way because Sesshomaru would have not left. He could’ve just left the mission to his younger hanyou brother InuYasha.

Kagome was restrained and she was put to rest upon the pallet. With her mind at ease for the moment, the Miko dreamt of her own mother and family 500 years in the future. A future she desperately missed. Tears beaded a the corners of her eyes and fell down her face, soaking the blankets beneath her. At this moment in time, she wondered what her mother would tell her in her situation. The miko remembered when her father was alive. He had told her she would amount to nothing - absolutely nothing. She was a failure. She should have never been born. And the only reason for his hatred was because of him impregnating Kagome's mother, they were forced to marry. It was a depressing turn of events. Her Mother, Noriko, made sure her daughter lived a life she never did and was not to make foolish mistakes as she did. The only thing Noriko ever regretted was having Kagome with that man.

He had died when Sota was a few months old and their lives returned to what they had been.

"

Your parents say everything is your fault

But they don't know you like I know you

They don't know you at all

I'm so sick of when they say

It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine

But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be

The last night you'll spend alone

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go

I'm everything you need me to be

The last night away from me

"

A low growl escaped Sesshomaru; he smelt blood. His mate's blood. His inner beast was stirring beneath its chains, as he sought to control the urge to shift and tear apart every organism that would dare harm his beloved. Without uttering a word to his companions - InuYasha, Miroku, Sango, Shippou and Jaken - his youki cloud appeared at his feet and carried him into the skies. With one thought on his mind, he hurried to reach the balcony in which lead to his private bedchambers.

Kagome had recovered previously after resting soundly for two days, but within a week, she was back up to her old antics. Not only had she started to gash open her wrists even more, the miko had neglected to keep hidden her secret. She didn't care if anyone knew she was pregnant. As far as she knew, at this very moment, she didn't want the fetus to develop any more. It was already getting close to coming out within a month, as pregnancies for Taiyoukai were only three months. And Kagome, being a powerful miko, was able to make her beloved's wish come true - to have a full-blooded Taiyoukai son who would be Heir to the West.

It came true. But, was it too late?

 

Sesshomaru arrived at the balcony and his heart skipped a beat at the sight of what met him. His mate was sound asleep, with nothing upon her petite frame, a silk blanket and fur draped over her lower, the top of her breasts revealed, but was not too enticing. Although, it did effect the Daiyoukai since one of the main things he was looking forward to upon his arrival home was a night long of affection with his precious mate. And it was then that he smelled the blood. And the spike in her scent. There was another. Removing his swords, he silently pulled the blanket away that dared hide her abdomen from him. Golden eyes widened significantly as he saw she was heavy with his pup.

Hearing the fluttering, he purred to reassure his pup that he was here and all was well. On her left hip, he saw the old scars that had been left from her self-mutilation. His beast roared. Who would DARE harm his mate?! Whomever did would pay dearly. However, before he could react any more, Koyuki appeared.

He glared at her. "What is the meaning of this Sesshomaru's mate's condition?"

"Milord. She was caught self-mutilating herself. She is depressed that her Lord disrespected her so wrongly..."

"What do you mean, wench?" He snarled.

Shivering involunarily, Koyuki continued in a quiet voice. "Lady Kagome did not know when Lord Sesshomaru was to return. We were instructed not to tell her as a punishment for her. She was worried that you could have been dead and she wouldn't have known. And when she found that she was with his Lord's Pup, she was even more depressed because she then started having homesickness. She often mutters 'Okaasan' in her sleep. And at times, she has nightmares and 'Otousan' is whispered fearfully."

The Daiyoukai felt such guilt that he knew his father would have scolded him soundly for his mistreatment of his mate. And not only did he forget that she was not youkai but she was also a girl from the future. She had been raised in a culture where women were expected to compete with their male counterparts and be independent. To show to everyone that they were strong and able to make it on their own without any man behind them.

"Leave." He commanded sharply.

Koyuki nodded and bowed, exiting the bedchambers quickly.

 

"

The night is so long when everything's wrong

If you give me your hand

I will help you hold on

Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you'll spend alone

Look me in the eyes so I know you know

I'm everywhere you want me to be

The last night you'll spend alone

I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go

I'm everything you need me to be

"

Sesshomaru stripped out of his clothes and went to lie beside his pregnant mate. Snuggling against her neck, he inhaled deeply, loving her natural scent - jasmine and morning dew is what he was reminded of. The feeling of her fingers intertwining with his brought back memories of their first night together. She had been amazing and he was at peace at last. Even though she understood that he was unable to express how he felt, she should have known that he would not act any different than he had previously when they were courting.

A small sigh escaped him as he felt her waking up. "Kagome..." he whispered, finding the shell of her ear and tracing it with fang and tongue. A breathy sigh was his answer. Bringing left hand to rest on her stomach, claws lightly scraping down to hip, tracing to inner thigh and down to the most sacred of areas.

Kagome had woken up as she was aware of feeling complete again - an effect that came after their blood was mixed at the mating ceremony. She was about to utter the name, but the breathe, tongue and fang and hand on her ear and leg made her forget all coherent thought. Although she was still depressed, Kagome realized that at that moment she and Sesshomaru still had many trials to face in the years to come. It was like any marriage....or mating. It took two to tango and Kagome lost sight of that. Even though her parents didn't marry out love, she was in this predicament because she fell in love with the Daiyoukai Lord of the West.

Sesshomaru was now positioned in between her legs, which spread naturally for him. She was eager to recieve him, as from the pregnancy, part of her problem had been sexual frustration. Her hormones were going haywire and no one was here to help her...and she had never relieved herself before, and she was shy about certain things like that.

Their hair intertwined like the Yin and Yang they truly were. With fingers also intertwined, Sesshomaru swiftly sheathed himself in his lover; a growl of contentment escaped his throat. Leaning down, he waited for her to adjust as this was only their second time together.

After a few moments, Kagome shifted, head thrashing. "Take me...please. Make me yours again. Show me your love, Sesshomaru." She whispered, tears beading at the corner of sapphire eyes.

With a small grunt, and a snap of his hips, Sesshomaru pushed all the way in and then pulled out slightly; and began a pace of long agonizing strokes which was gentle. It was true love making and the night melted around them as they relearned each other's bodies.

They had missed each other intensely....and in the midst of everything, as Sesshomaru held his tiny mate in his arms, her fingers playing with strands of silver, he said. "Kagome, I apologize for hurting you the way I did. I never meant any harm and was not thinking things through as I usually do. Please, forgive me?"

Another fresh waves of tears fell. "Apology accepted. I love you, Sesshomaru."

She leaned up and kissed him right after he said, "And I love you, Kagome."

 

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I won't let you say goodbye

And I'll be your reason why

The last night away from me

Away from me

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Hmz. So, that's my first oneshot. =]

I am working on the other two stories, so dun fret what few readers I have.

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